Pranav
is here to take Ayaan with him for few days. But this time when Ayaan returns
back to me, my son’s life is going to change again. I’m not sure if he can
handle it. Isn’t it too much pressure on a kid? Who am I kidding?! My worries
are not just about Ayaan……somewhere deep down this is going to affect me too.
But
it’s inevitable. Back in time, Ayaan’s existence made me feel, I’m getting a
second chance with Pranav. But I couldn’t avoid the realization for long that
I’m holding onto a mirage, something that’s never going to be mine! I was able
to survive that blow because of Ayaan, his presence in my life. Now it’s my
turn to be that solid support to him.
Asking Ayaan to get his bags out, Pranav
moved towards Janaki. She addressed him with nonchalance.
“You have a tough task of making Ayaan
understand”.
“I know”
“Don’t hurt my child”.
“I won’t hurt my son”.
She nodded plainly. He hesitated a bit
before asking the next thing on his mind.
“Will you be okay?”
“Did it ever matter to you?”
He has no response.
“My consent is not an issue Pranav. I
don’t have any right over you now. I’m not your wife. You have every right to
live your life the way you want. I’m just afraid for my child”.
He nodded understandingly and didn’t
drag the conversation any more.
******************
Pranav finished bathing Ayaan and let
him out to take a quick shower. They played football in the evening, had dinner
and now gearing up for an animation film in the home theatre. But he needs to
talk to his son. He didn’t know though how to present the matter to his son.
Pranav came out of the bathroom to see his son wiping his hair while moving to
the tunes of Michel Jackson’s ‘Dangerous’. Pranav smiled. He gently moved him
on the recliner and wiped his hair well. But his son is in a fun mood.
“Dad come, dance with me”.
He pulled Pranav. Having no choice and
also wanting to enjoy this moment with his son, he danced with Ayaan. They had
a wonderful time and settled down on the recliner laughing.
“I love you Dad”
“I love you too champ”
He kissed Ayaan’s forehead caressing his
hair and Ayaan side-hugged him. Suddenly Ayaan got up.
“Dad, I need to watch that movie. Let’s
go”
“One minute son; Dad wants to talk to
you about something”.
“What Dad?”
Pranav took him in his arms. He took
some time to begin.
“You know your Maa and Dad are your
parents but not married now. Hmm?!”
Ayaan nodded.
“Do
you want to know the reason why we are no more married?”
Ayaan nodded again with curiosity.
“It’s because Dad loves another woman”.
Ayaan’s face was a mix of confusion,
doubts, anxiety and sadness. Pranav hugged Ayaan more close to him affectionately,
struggling to explain this to him.
“Champ, when two people marry, there
should be love between them. Somehow when your Maa and I married, that love was
not there”.
“Why?”
“Ayaan.....sometimes it’s like that. In
some cases love develop later on in their lives. In our lives, your Maa did
develop feelings for me. But somehow Dad was unable to love her back the way
she deserved. It is my weakness, not your mother’s”.
“Why Dad? Why couldn’t you love her back?
She is so good”.
“You are too small to understand all
this now Ayaan. When you grow up, maybe you will. Janaki is a nice woman. But
love doesn’t happen always; it doesn’t happen just because one is married or
our partner is good. It has to come from within us. Our soul should recognize
the other as its soul mate. It happened for me with Pallavi. I found my solace
in her”.
Ayaan’s face dropped. Pranav could not
see him like this.
Arnav: What happened son?
“At school many students were making fun
of me with this name. Teachers also talk in between them; that you left Maa and
me for her. And you...you never loved us”.
Pranav fisted his fingers.
Public
can be too cruel when it comes to the lives of celebrities. They just gossip
and never realize what effect it has on a celebrities’ life, on his family, on
his children. Here my son is already close to the truth and hurt by it. I
couldn’t break it to him first and make him prepared to face the cruel mouths
around him. But I’ve no right to get angry because it all begins with me!
He felt helpless and hugged his son fiercely.
“I’m sorry son. Forgive Dad for this”.
“So it’s true?”
He slowly came out of the hug and took
Ayaan’s hands in his.
“Ayaan, when people around you talk
something, what you must understand is, it’s never the whole truth. If you have
doubts in mind, you should ask your dear ones and clear it. People love to
gossip about other’s life. They never think about its effects on others. So
never let such people affect your life. Do you get me?”
Ayaan nodded with tears coming out of
his eyes slowly. Pranav couldn’t take it, he wiped them immediately.
“No champ, don’t cry”.
“What’s the truth Dad?”
He sat down on the floor leaning his
back on the recliner and pulled Ayaan on his lap hugging him.
“Truth is love Ayaan. In love there is
no right and wrong. Love makes one selfish sometimes, selfless sometimes. Once
when we couldn’t deny each other, Pallavi and I became selfish in our love
hurting our dear ones. But when she came to know you were coming into this
world, she became selfless enough to let your father go, for your sake; despite
what she will have to face at the hands and tongues of this cruel society. She
could have made her future and name secure by marrying me then, but she didn’t.
Similarly your Maa could have held onto to me, for your sake and made all our
lives miserable for her love; but she didn’t. Both their love is true. But I
could reciprocate only to one and....and I loved Pallavi...always; even when
she was not in my life”.
Ayaan is listening with full attention.
“Janaki and I decided that it’s better
to part ways for a better future. Staying together we would have never been
able to give you a proper family. Better than that is giving you a father and
mother in their own right. When we divorced, Pallavi was not there between us.
She is not the reason your parents separated. If all this is anyone’s fault,
then it is your father’s alone. I alone spoiled two girls’ lives. I was always
the selfish one. When I married your Maa, it was for my grandma’s happiness and
personal benefits. When I found love with Pallavi, I was selfish enough to
leave your Maa alone and go. Even now, I’m selfish; I’m selfish when I’m trying
to get my share of happiness in this life”.
“Isn’t that wrong Dad? If Maa and….that
woman….can be selfless then why couldn’t you be?”
“I don’t know son. I don’t know what is
right and wrong. All I can tell you is, sometimes we have to sacrifice
ourselves for our family. Like how Pallavi and I did when you were to be born.
And like how your Maa gave up on me for my happiness. And sometimes for
our own individual sake, we have to choose between family and ourselves. And
that’s a very tough decision to take. Trust me, only those who have experienced
such a state can tell you how much they are caught in the web of ‘right and
wrong’ and suffers taking a stand. What is right for you can be wrong for
another”.
Both remained silent for some time.
“I revealed all this today because……”
Pranav hesitated. Ayaan stared at him
with confusion.
“Dad and Pallavi are planning to get
married soon. Will you be okay with it son?”
Ayaan bend his face low.
“If you are not happy, I won’t go ahead
with it champ; promise! I can’t hurt you more”.
Ayaan remained silent for some time.
Pranav sat patiently with Ayaan on his lap, waiting for his son to say something.
Slowly he began to talk.
“You don’t love Mom. And….you love…Pallavi.
You will be happy only with her….and not Mom…..It will never change?
Ayaan raised his eyes to look into his
father’s eyes.
“Will Mom be okay with it? Does she know
already?”
“Janaki know”
Ayaan bend his head again.
“Ayaan....son, if you are not okay with
this, Dad won’t do this. You just have to command”.
He took his time to respond.
“You will always be my Dad right? Will
you come to meet me always? You won’t leave me and Maa in times of trouble
right? Will you still be in our life?”
“I’m going nowhere son. My marriage will
not change anything between us. I was, am and will always be there for you. I’m
your Dad and you are my son. No one can take that away from us”.
Ayaan nodded and hugged his father.
Pranav relaxed in his arms.
“And you are going to get a young sister
too”.
Ayaan came out of the hug and looked at
his father’s face in confusion.
“Like I have you in my life, Pallavi has
a daughter, her name is Avni. Now you will have a sister as well. You always
wanted a sister right?”
Ayaan kept looking at his father’s face
and hugged him fiercely. A battle has already started in his mind. He felt like
he is going to lose his father in every sense. Nothing is going to be same
anymore.
Nisha and Akash have come for a week’s
stay with Pallavi and their mother. Avni is fast asleep after dinner. Pallavi
told them she has something to discuss and they all joined her in the balcony
after dinner. She is unsure how to brooch the subject. Seeing her hesitance
they asked her what’s wrong.
“Pranav proposed to me”.
Nisha and Aakash shared a smile. While
her mother came and sat beside her, taking her face in her arms.
“And what have you decided?”
“Last time…..I decided everything
according to my wish. This time I don’t want to repeat the same mistake”.
Laxmi couldn’t control her tears. She
hugged Pallavi who sought solace in her arms.
“In the past, situation was such that,
we couldn’t stand by your side. Everything seemed wrong, and we thought we did
what is best for our daughter. Yet again everything went wrong in your life”.
“You did what any parent would do Maa.
I’ve no regrets. You’ve always shown me the right path; and I want your
guidance again”.
Laxmi came out of her hug when Nisha
touched her arm. She wiped her daughter’s tears before speaking.
“Last time we could neither accept it
nor give consent. But now, there can’t be a better decision than this. I’m
happy for you baby”.
Pallavi hugged her mother tears
streaming down her eyes again. This support is important to her.
Nisha demanded for her hug breaking them
into a smile despite the tears. The sisters hugged each other.
“We want you to be happy. We were
actually waiting for this news from a long time”.
Pallavi stared at her.
“After Arjun, we knew if you are to have
a life, it would be with Pranav only; especially when he got a divorce too. But
we didn’t know how to make it happen for you. Last time we denied it to you and
this time we didn’t know how to give it back to you”.
Pallavi wiped her tears.
“Just live your life the way you want
Pallavi. You are happy and that’s all we want”.
“Avni...will she be able to accept this
change?”
“She needs a father figure in her life
too. She will get adjusted” Laxmi assured her.
“It’s time to celebrate. I will bring
sweets”.
Nisha and Laxmi went inside to get
sweets. Akash patted Pallavi’s shoulders.
“Congrats. You have taken the right
decision for yourself and Avni. Go by it, we all are with you”.
She nodded smiling weakly.
“Family is the biggest strength an
individual can have in life. If your family is with you in a decision you are
making, that means you are on the right path. You can face any hurdles if your
family’s support is with you. I’m telling from my own experience”.
For the first time Pallavi felt relaxed
about the decision she made. A soft smile appeared on her face.
***************
Jasmine kept the phone. She is happy for
Pallavi. Just then she heard the door bell ring. She had ordered for pizza. But
when she opened the door, Viren stood before her with pizza in one hand.
“I’m famished. Thanks for the pizza”.
He walked in through the door ignoring
her.
“I was with the team discussing how the
publicity of the film can be done in a more effective manner. Since the release
date is nearing, my head is one fire, so is my stomach.
He placed the pizza on the dining table
and moved towards kitchen. Jasmine came and leaned on the door of the kitchen
folding her hands. He saw she has placed milk for coffee on the burner.
“Coffee this late at night, hmm, don’t
you want to sleep girl.. Anyways I’m tired as well. A good cup of coffee can
lift my spirits. Nope, I’m not expecting you to make one for me, I will help
myself. In fact I will make yours as well”.
He added more milk and kept it on the
burner. He made coffee whistling alone while Jasmine went to washroom. But when
she came out she did not see Viren anywhere. Also the pizza packet and coffee
mugs are missing. Suddenly he came through the front door again and went inside
the kitchen; took 2 plates and spoons with him.
“Come upstairs Jasmine, we are having a
candlelight dinner on the balcony”.
He winked at her and walked to the door.
“I’m not coming anywhere with you”.
“I know. That’s why last one week I have
been coming here and having dinner, not taking you out to some restaurant.
Because I knew you won’t come out with me. I am not being a miser and saving my
purse. My intentions are pure”.
Jasmine stared at him in an unnerving
way.
“Umm…don’t do that; feels weird. It
makes me feel like you are the male and I’m the female here. That gives me
creeps. You know, manhood is everything for a man!”
“If you want your food, just come up
leaving your ego!!!!!”
After almost 15 minutes when Jasmine
didn’t turn up, Viren sighed.
“Damn her stubbornness!”
He went inside and saw her sitting on
the couch simply changing channels.
“Ok look. Just come. I want to have
dinner with you. I won’t talk rubbish...I won’t propose. Ok? Just a dinner…..Please”.
She switched off the Tv and walked out
into the balcony.
“Who can resist Viren after all?”
He whistled his way out.
**************
“I can never be a mother”.
“I’m not sure if I can be a father or
not, never checked!”
“The only person who truly loved me was
my father. You…..reminded me of him”.
“Really? Then why did you avoid me,
instead of falling for my charms babe?!”
She stared at him silently.
“Because your charming nature reminded
me of someone else……Rahul”.
Viren replied indifferently biting into
the pizza.
“Mm…I have heard about it. I know you
had a past affair which shattered you completely that you became so averse to
even the mere idea of men”.
“I met Rahul when we both were studying
in the film institute at Pune. He filled my life with love which I was craving
for after my father’s death. My mother was busy with her third husband and I
really had no touch with my step siblings. He became the centre of my life. I
was blind in my love for him. But he used my innocence for his benefit. He
pimped me to a senior director and producer so that he gets the opportunity to
make his debut film, which was the biggest goal in life”.
Viren listened to her silently when she
is pouring out.
“I broke up with him when I couldn’t
hold on. He used his child inside my womb to get me back so that he can use me
for his successes. I decided to kill that fetus which will let him have a hold
on me and I did it”.
She gulped down the water Viren gave
her. She is getting emotional. Her face is getting covered in sweat quickly and
her eyes turned red.
“I killed my child. I also got my womb
removed. It gave me a sense of power. I don’t know if it is right to say like
that, but when I ‘un-womaned’ myself according to the labels and designations
of society, I felt powerful, different and better. Everyone has their own way
of thinking and their own personal shares of right and wrong. I followed what
my mind said is right. I used my mother’s money and influence to sweep him off
my life. My mother was angry with me, but thankfully she helped me with it. And
Rahul’s chapter was over. He was dead; how, why, by whom none knew”.
She wiped her face.
“After that I never used my mother’s
help as well. I fought my way into the industry. Mmm...There were many hurdles.
Hey, you know whom I was sold to by Rahul?”
Viren stared at Jasmine.
“Shyam Nadir, his father-in-law and some
of their contacts”.
Viren swore!
“Shyam was after me while I was making
my career. He tried to pull me down many times when he never got me where he
wanted. With my hard work, will power I came up and here I am”.
Jasmine gave a genuine smile. Viren saw
her face and he couldn’t help but smile back weakly.
This
woman had gone through so much yet she is here, so successful, throwing her
success at the face of those who tried to defeat her. My respect for Jas just
grew ten folds!
“So in my way up, I saw so much, that I
decided it is better to be away from men. I don’t mean I live a celibate life
but it never went beyond the basic need. I have nothing to offer in a serious
relationship like you desire from me. I can’t give you family, nor am I a ‘marriage
material’ (she rolled her eyes while saying that and he smiled) and dogs like
you can fuck around but will ultimately need a docile wife. I don’t want to be
your pastime”.
Viren laughed out loud.
“As far as I remember, you have always
rejected me. So even if you do that now, it is not a big deal for me. I will
still keep trying (he leaned towards Anjali’s face with a naughty romantic
expression) till you accept me in your life”.
Jasmine stared at him as if he’s grown
two horns.
“I’m not going to give up Jasmine, not
now, and never in future. There’s no woman who has captivated my interest like
you have. I know it’s going to be a rollercoaster ride with you, but I’m ready
for this adventure”.
He winked at her with his killer smile.
“You are impossible; you know that right?”
He grinned.
“Now that’s like my tigress Jasmine. Ok
so listen, I’m an outcast in my family because of my nature. They literally
have no expectation from me. I think they even wonder if I’m a closet gay. So
if they get to know about you, they will digest it with few years. And I don’t
need a wife but a girlfriend for myself. Wives are dangerous for my health and
I’m sure you’ll make one sexy girlfriend; that’s the highlight man! And coming
to kids…”
Jasmine has a slight hint of fear in her
eyes which she’s trying to mask, Viren does realize that.
“I hate kids. They are so yeww!!!!
Babies keeps shitting or crying or sleeping all the time. And kids turn house
upside down and I hate it when someone plays with my personal space. And when
they turn into teens; if they are anything like you and I then they will be
rebels and give us headache after headache. Also in this age we are living, girls
or boys, bringing them up are a risk. This society is not safe for them. So it’s
better if we just live our lives well and leave this world when its time”.
She kept looking at Viren’s serious
expressions and then burst out laughing. Viren joined in her laughter and both
of them kept laughing out loud. The night filled with their laughter as they
finally found a base to their relationship.
******************
Media is having a field day over the re-united
couple Pranav and Pallavi. The news of marriage is out in the open; somehow
media got whiff of it and are now using it in all ways they could.
Some are not even bothered about these
celebs; while some just watched the entire drama and masala media offers just
for time pass. They passed some comments over it and then moved on to the next
news. Fans supported them through their associations and on social networking
sites by fighting with anti-fans and moralists who are against their favourite
couple. Either way there is mixed response to their relationship.
Pranav and Pallavi has decided not to
pay attention to media and the circus they make out of their lives. Nor did
they pay attention to fans defending them with passion. All that mattered to
them is their family and since they have their support this time around,
everything is fine in their world.
But there is one person who is deeply
affected by this news - Shyam Nadir.
**************
A glass containing whisky shattered on
the marble floor. Shyam Nadir is taking out his frustration after seeing the
latest news on tv. His current mistress Mamta Patel, a prominent side actress
woke up lazily wrapping the satin sheets around her. She saw the rigid profile
of Shyam and the profanities he is muttering. She also saw the broken glass and
finished bottles of alcohol. She sighed and leaned towards the side drawer and
took out a cigarette packet and lit one up. Leaning back on the headrest she
addressed Shyam.
“ It is very famous you know!”
“What?” he barked.
“Your failed attempts with Pallavi Nanda”.
Shyam just grit his teeth.
“I know you did a lot to make her bent
in the past as well as in the present. But nothing worked, too bad!!!”
“Will you Just SHUT UP”.
She sighed.
“Ok I will. But just a free advise;
leave her alone at least from now. I think facing Pranav Malhotra is not something
that Shyam Nadir will be able to handle”.
Crushing the cigarette she moved towards
the bathroom.
Shyam cursed behind her. Although he
hated to admit it, he knew what she said is right.
Pallavi Nanda will now always remain a dream!!!
